i'm so incredibly joyful.. just plain joyful. you know those moments where you're so excited your throat clenches because you just want to scream but can't because people would think you're a mad(wo)man? oh man, is this one of those moments.
i just came back from "meet at the mill", a worship service held at a unique coffee shop in downtown grand rapids.. it was fantastic. around 80 college students, coming together to worship god.. the passion was bubbling. we were all scrunched together like sardines, it was awesome.. a hot, steamy mess of people offering worship to our savior. we had a chance to pray with people around us, and my group went down to our knees and just prayed. it was pretty intimate. i loved being vulnerable with those people, just getting my thoughts/prayers out. there's something about praying together that just makes the bond between friends, or even strangers, so much tighter.. i should do it more often, i think. after we poured our hearts out to eachother, we poured what was left to god in a little more worship. the night was great.. a nice refresher from my past week of studying and packing up my apartment. it was my last little shindig with all my grand valley peeps, and let me tell you.. there's no other way i'd rather have said goodbye.
another reason i'm feeling all giddy inside is because i'm moving out of my apartment tomorrow to return back home.. i'm so happy with my decision, i know this is where i'm being led. there's no way i'm going to be able to sleep tonight.. i feel like a child on christmas eve.. "the sooner you get to bed, the sooner santa will be here!".. my santa (in the form of leaving grand valley) is coming soon. as much as i feel this decision is right, it's bittersweet... more sweet than bitter. my assurance of me moving home doesn't take away from the fact that i'm going to miss my friends up here like mad. i've never had a group of friends like this; they are what got me through my denials of grand valley, my breakup, my sad days, my insecurities.. and much more. they're fabulous to say the least.. and i will truly miss them. if you find yourself reading this, gv friend, thank you for being such an encouragement and guiding me along this unkown path i've encountered. anywho, my excitement is seeping over.. and i can't wait to be home. i have absolutely no idea where i'm headed... career-wise (anyone who really knows me, knows i want to be a stay at home mother), job-wise (for the present time), class-wise (when class starts in less than a month). i'm just lacking a layout of my life right now, and who-da thunk it.. but that just makes me more excited because i have nothing to worry about. i'm fully confident that god will guide me in a direction, give me opportunities, give me situations in which i'll start to mold the rest of my life.. how exciting is that? i've just let it go, and give up the reins.. "here you go, god.. you want it? it's yours." that's my proclomation at this moment in my life.. i'm praying that i can keep it. : ) what's not to be joyful about, i mean.. c'mon!
i just came back from "meet at the mill", a worship service held at a unique coffee shop in downtown grand rapids.. it was fantastic. around 80 college students, coming together to worship god.. the passion was bubbling. we were all scrunched together like sardines, it was awesome.. a hot, steamy mess of people offering worship to our savior. we had a chance to pray with people around us, and my group went down to our knees and just prayed. it was pretty intimate. i loved being vulnerable with those people, just getting my thoughts/prayers out. there's something about praying together that just makes the bond between friends, or even strangers, so much tighter.. i should do it more often, i think. after we poured our hearts out to eachother, we poured what was left to god in a little more worship. the night was great.. a nice refresher from my past week of studying and packing up my apartment. it was my last little shindig with all my grand valley peeps, and let me tell you.. there's no other way i'd rather have said goodbye.
another reason i'm feeling all giddy inside is because i'm moving out of my apartment tomorrow to return back home.. i'm so happy with my decision, i know this is where i'm being led. there's no way i'm going to be able to sleep tonight.. i feel like a child on christmas eve.. "the sooner you get to bed, the sooner santa will be here!".. my santa (in the form of leaving grand valley) is coming soon. as much as i feel this decision is right, it's bittersweet... more sweet than bitter. my assurance of me moving home doesn't take away from the fact that i'm going to miss my friends up here like mad. i've never had a group of friends like this; they are what got me through my denials of grand valley, my breakup, my sad days, my insecurities.. and much more. they're fabulous to say the least.. and i will truly miss them. if you find yourself reading this, gv friend, thank you for being such an encouragement and guiding me along this unkown path i've encountered. anywho, my excitement is seeping over.. and i can't wait to be home. i have absolutely no idea where i'm headed... career-wise (anyone who really knows me, knows i want to be a stay at home mother), job-wise (for the present time), class-wise (when class starts in less than a month). i'm just lacking a layout of my life right now, and who-da thunk it.. but that just makes me more excited because i have nothing to worry about. i'm fully confident that god will guide me in a direction, give me opportunities, give me situations in which i'll start to mold the rest of my life.. how exciting is that? i've just let it go, and give up the reins.. "here you go, god.. you want it? it's yours." that's my proclomation at this moment in my life.. i'm praying that i can keep it. : ) what's not to be joyful about, i mean.. c'mon!
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